Darkness or Brightness

23rd Oct, another start again... Did i really think through carefully? Did i make the right choice? Was the decision what i want?

I seem lost this year. Told myself not to start anew for the time being and was unable to step into any new r/s for the last few months.
被蛇咬难道还不怕蛇吗!!

Rested for 2 months... Short or Long? I believe it was short... Everything happen out of no where.

For 7 years, we had known each other but seem like we had only got to known each other only for a few months. Was that why things happen strangely again?

He wasn't good looking but he has the mature thinking in some ways and is considerate and caring. He has the criteria that i feel guys should have. And that was probably what attracted me in a way.

However this start still made me unsure. I intended to ask him give me somemore time but when i saw him i couldn't bear to say it out. Am i able to commit? I myself is unsure even. Fear that it might affect our friendship if anything was to go wrongs also pulled me back sometime.

If we will work out i do not know, i believe he do not know also. However time shall show the result.

Let thing take its natural course is the best way.

A guy can be extreme good to you however their heart is uncontrollable. Things and feeling might change any moment any second.