Goodbye My Love

It has been more than one months. My Birthday had pass, Mooncake Festival had pass. Memories has fade?

As i was watching "好想谈个恋爱".. Memories slowly pass through my mind.. tears slowly roll down my cheeks... 这部戏竟然勾起了我的回忆..

A show that ticker the time and things that happen to me in the last 2 months. He appeared once again in my mind. Recalled the night we last sms each other. The message he post in his blog for me has never been forgotten. In every KTV session the song "最近" is always on the song list.

"爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合
也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福"

I tried my best to forget everything and let it go but i could not. What is holding me back? There is nothing i can do. I cannot ask him back and is unable to, neither will i do it as i am the kind that will never make the first move.

The only thing i can do for him is let him go, let him fly up into the blue sky he soar for.

Baby, the only happiness i can give to you is to let you go. I am unable to give you what i wish to give and intend to give. The only thing i can give you is the freedom you wish for.

Goodbye My Love! .. You will never be forgotten.

Lost***

Chances is here yet terms and reason is missing.

Have you tried putting a piece of yummy cake to your mouth yet unable to eat it down?
I tried it today...

Right now i am confused and lost. The offer was good but because of one factor it affected the smooth sailing.

I am unsure what should i do now. Friday will be the deadline.

To forsake the chance?
To request higher offer?
To forsake $?

Can someone guide me to the right path?

Confused!!

Base your choices on simple pros and cons, deadlines and dates. If you want to move beyond your current phase of life, you are going to have to get a better plan together. Enlist help from your most organized friends and learn from the masters!

Everyone tend to seek for higher salary and better prospect job however in order to achieve the aim, we will need to give up something for it. There is no 100% perfection. For a person like me who tend to be indecisive sometime. Now seem to be finding means to persuade myself that the sacrifice is unavoidable.

Although the pay difference is not that big but at least i know if there is no overtime i would still be able to get the high pay. More things is also able to learn and explore. New job environment is also a good and brand new start for me. I am still young, I can't be staying put on same location forever and since the chance is here i should hold on to it. If i was to let go, i won't be able to know if i will get the chance again.

However on the other side. It was only the amount of bonus that i will getting 5 months later that is holding me back. To forsake such an amount is 可惜 and might be stupid. However beside this there is not much reason that will be able to hold me back to continue working in current job.

*If i was to forsake to the new job offer, what i gain is the bonus i will be getting.*
*If i was to forsake the bonus, what i gain is higher monthly income, better job prospect and new things that i will be able to learn.*

In my mindset i knew what i wanted to do however on the other side i believe i need more assurance and confident.

Tomorrow will mark the day of the new start and also the ending to an old story.

Hope that i will have better prospect and career enhancement.

Can someone give me some words of advice?
Can someone lead me to the brand new start?
Can someone give me the support and courage i need?

My Blogspot

Finally i started a blog to share with my beloved friends on 9th September.

Yuki's World & Mystery World of Yuki both has similar contents but they represent different meanings to me. There will be certain things which will appears in Yuki's World but not in Mystery World of Yuki.

Yuki's World is a place which only my soulmate will know its existence. It is a place that is full of my thoughts & comments for things that happen around me. A blog that is full of my feelings, joy, sorrow and sadness. A place for me to spell all my thoughts out and let me feel more relax.

However Mystery World of Yuki is a place i share with all my friends in friendster. It is a world that can be either dark or bright, it will contain advise, meaningful thoughts, beautiful message and beautiful happenings around me.

Why i do not just post all the things/message in a single blogspot? The answer is never let other people see you clearly, everyone must have some secret and mystery part hidden up. 千万不要让人们看透自己, 每个人都必须有所保留.

True Love & Marriage

Alot of people miss their * Faith * because they dun really know what is love all about * pls read tis * Love Message:

A student ask a teacher, "what is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go throught them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi,but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realise that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regreted !!!! So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand. The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realise, you have already miss the person............ :(

"What is marriage then ????" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go throught them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher. The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage." ...............

珍惜眼前人 ~ Treasure The Person Beside You

中文版 ~ Chinese Version

有位男孩很爱女孩，把她当宝一样的捧在手里。
下雨时，男孩总是把伞尽量撑在女孩身上，而自己身上都湿了，却笑的很甜，女孩很感动，也喜欢男孩这样的宠着她。
那天，他们一起去散步回来，路过一个工地，突然一块碎石从上面掉了下来。
男孩赶紧用身体抱住女孩，可突然间，男孩将女孩的身体背转过来，自己倒在了地上。
女孩重重的摔在他身上，而石块正好砸在女孩的额头，血慢慢地流了出来。 女孩哭着跑了回家，她真的很失望…
男孩打了她好多次电话，她没接就把手机关了，把自己关在房间里痛哭。
直到被敲门声惊醒，她妈妈告诉她，男孩被一根铁丁刺穿了肺部，失血过多离开了人世…
她疯了一样地跑去医院，男孩躺在白色的病床上。
手里紧紧地握着手机，上面写的这样一条信息： ”亲爱的，当我看到地上的铁丁时，我已经没有办法为你挡住石头了。亲爱的，痛吗？”
女孩抱着男孩的尸体痛哭着…

Morale of the story:-
好好珍惜你爱的人，不要等失去后才来珍惜…

English Version

There is a boy who loves a girl very much, always treat her like a precious gem.

On rainy days, boy always shield the girl with the umbrella and he gets drenched himself, but yet he stills smiles very sweetly, girl is very touched and likes the way boy treats her.

One day, after a stroll, they bypass a construction site, suddenly down came a stone. Boy quickly uses his body to hug girl, but suddenly, boy turns girl around and fell on the ground himself.
Girl falls heavily on boy, and stone hits girl’s forehead, blood came flowing down.

Girl ran home crying, very disappointed…

Boy calls girl several times, but girl didn’t pick up and off the hp, locked herself in the room.

Until she was alerted by the knocks on the door, her mum told her, boy was hit by a nail in the lungs, due to loss of blood, had left this world.

Girl ran like crazy to the hospital, boy was lying on the white bed.

In boy’s hand, held his hp with a message: “Darling, when I saw the nail on the floor, I knew I was not able to protect you from the stone anymore. Darling, does it hurt?”

Girl hugged the boy’s body and cry…

Morale of the story:-
Please treasure your beloved ones, do not wait till you lose it then cherish…

The Night 16092007

Spent the whole noon of my birthday at home. Eventually meet Liwei for dinner at 7pm. Thanks a lot to him for "booking" the whole restaurant for my birthday. My Secret Garden is a place with nice atmosphere for dining & chilling.

http://www.mysg.com.sg/main.htm

The food was delicious also. I had the Rib-Eye Steak accompanied by a glass of Red Wine. Both was nice. :)

Follow by the main course is a desert - Triple Choc Cake. The chocolate was delicious and yummy.

Thanks a lot to Liwei for the beautiful dinner & cake.

As i was home at 11pm plus. I log on to my friendster and saw a friendster message from him. Thanks for remembering my birthday. Although it was just a simple greeting but i was grate to receive it.

Now it is pass 12am already. 2nd day of my 24th years old life. Had another dinner date with Simon tonight.

Really grate to discover that i wasn't lonely for my birthday and there is still a few dates to meet up.

人们常说朋友多真麻烦但是我觉得朋友多并不是件坏事因为在你有困难和伤心时朋友一定会在你身旁..

B|rthd@y CountDown..

Yesterday night celebrated my 24th birthday with Huiling, Peishi, Huiting, Meiqin, Melisa, Zhen Xiong, Seng Keong, Jimmy, Virus & Felicia.

The night was fun and enjoyable however i knew in my heart something is still missing. I am very happy and grateful for all the joy & fun that my dear friends & sisters had brought to me at the KTV & dinner session. Their gifts was also beautiful & memorable to me. Grateful to have them around on my birthday coutdown.

As the time pass slowly, it eventually strike 12am which marks the start of my 24th years old life. In the last episode of my 23rd years old, many things happened and disappointment came one after another so as the clock strike 12am i would wish that all those unhappy and bad things disappear and let me had a better tomorrow and future.

Sms come in one by one but till now there is a sms which i hope to receive but never. Last year this time i received a surprise sms greeting from someone i thought had forgotten or rather would not had send me the birthday greeting after 5 years. But this year i would not know if he still remember or had forgotten.

This is the 1st time i spent my actual birthday at home alone. For the past 2 months, 2 persons mentioned to celebrate with me my birthday but both failed to do so.

My last episode for 23rd years old is really an unexpected and disappointed one. However i am grateful to have my friends & sisters around to welcome my 24th years old & hope this is a new start & beautiful one.

Moments brought to me by my dear friends:

http://www.imagestation.com/6413061/3888110394
http://s146.photobucket.com/albums/r244/Yuki03/?action=view&current=MVI_0882.flv

Althought he is no longer beside me, i would still wish that he will still remember me & my birthday.

你是否还记得我的生日?

KTV with UOB Friends

14th Sept, together with Liwei, Tze xian, Joyce & Charmayne we went orchard partyworld for ktv. We booked the room from 9pm to 1pm however in the end we extended another hour. It has been long since we went as a group for ktv. Although it wasn't really fun to me but it was great to have them around with me.

After ktv Tze Xian, Liwei, Charmayne & me went Jalan Kayu for roti prata. Eventually we ended the night only at 3am plus.

Hope there will be more of this kind of outing.

二十四岁的生日

自己的生日当天有谁不想与心爱的人一起度过.. 我也不例外. 随着一连串的感情失败对与我二十四岁的生日带来了很大的影响.

生命中从没想过会发生的两段感情来的快也去的快.两个月前L建议了我今年的生日在卡啦OK箱房庆祝,因此他替我在St James Mono 订了一间. 旦是他却带给了我伤心与悲伤.

随着他的离去我竟然在一个月前又踏入了另一段没预料到会发生的恋情. 与WL的缘分竟然在6年后才发生, 可说是奇迹. 但这段感情却如风一样来的快也去的快.

伤心与悲伤也随着时间慢慢的离去了.但对与不能与WL共度二十四岁生日的遗憾始终任然存在.

经理了两段感情失败的我决定休息,不想再一次被感情伤害. 需要时间来疗伤.

这时候的我对与快来临的二十四岁的生日愿望并是:
1) 顺力通过应征, 能在事业上成功
2) 在感情, 希望在伤口复原后会找到我的白马王子
3) "希望缘分不会消失"

Earthquake

Punggol is prone to earthquake as it is near the sea. So this time round we are affected by it again. I believe this was the most serious tremor i had ever experience till now.

Early 7.50am, i was preparing for my work. When suddenly i feel my body shaking and the door moving. I went to the living room to discover the dining light swinging here and there, the same goes to my lantern and the big vase on the flower was also dancing. Dizzy...Hair Stand!!

As i had not change, i was in a hesitation of what to do as my neighbour had went downstairs.

Today was consider the 2nd tremor as yesterday my family and neighbour experienced a more serious tremor during dinner time. Even the table was moving.. Scary...

As i had to prepare for work hence i did not bother about the quake and just speed up my preparation and leave the house as soon as possible. As i was about to leave the house the tremor had stopped.

What a day. Early morning my hair stand.. Scary...

**LOST & FOUND**

Peishi, Huiling & me had been sisters for more than 10 years. As we was emailing yesterday, Peishi digged out some old photos of the 3 of us. It was an ugly photo. The photo made us realise how much we had changed and times really fly. We look so nerd and innocent in the photos.


As a result i decided to dig out even old photos of us since Secondary 1. As i was digging out the photos burnt in my CD collection. I found something which i had been wanting to find yet could not remember where i saved it. Moments before i found the photo, i was exploring my mobile and was surprised to find the video i recorded when he was singing during our reunion at the pub.


As i look at the 1st photo that both of us took years ago during his graduation ceremony and listening to the short video, things slowly flashed in my mind again. It wasn't only the things that happened recently but also things that happened between us years ago.


--> He fetched me from my house to school. Meet me after lesson and sending me home. Walking all the way from school to central and to my house. Singing at my house and with his friends.

In a sudden i realise that he is the only one whom stand a place in my heart and had been to all my 3 living area, my 2 old house/block and my current new house. And he is one of the 2 person had tried the food that i prepared specially.

Was all this destined? Why do i realise it only now? Was everything suppose to be only like this?


There is no happiness comparable to cooking a delicious meal for loved one and enjoying the moment being with him.
吃在嘴里甜在心里.. 只要能与心爱的人在一起不管在那里都是最开心的...


Is the world black and white again?

Scorpio + Virgo

Water + Earth = Mud

There are many Scorpios and Virgos who’ve been attracted to each other. Lots of them have been able to create a happy, comfortable and fulfilling life by pooling their financial, mental and emotional resources.

At the other end of the spectrum is a group that doesn’t work so well. They marry and stay together for life but never quite fulfil each other. This is because both are very demanding in their own way.

Your ruling planet, Pluto, is challenging in a most confrontational way, whereas Virgo prefers to do battle rationally, in a way that is courteous and unassuming.

In a permanent relationship they’ll feel you’re insensitive, your blunt manner shows a lack of respect, and you don’t take their basic needs into account. And you’ll become irritated with them, if not completely frustrated by their overly logical examination of every minor issue.

If you lightened up, you’d feel much more confident about a relationship with Virgo. On a practical level, and in the bedroom, this relationship has all the characteristics of a really great partnership.

This is particularly so from your vantage point, financially: Virgo will offer you practical security as well as love. The two of you can work towards financial stability, and build a mutual support system that gives you more than the basic emotional or romantic fulfilment of most relationships — with some prosperity thrown in for good measure.

Be wary of Virgos born between 24 August and 2 September: Mercury, which co-rules them, is opposite in nature to you. There will be temper flare-ups from time to time. There may also be a difference in your age or cultural background which will make you question the relationship. Think hard about taking the friendship to a more serious level — before you dive in.

Virgos born between 3 September and 12 September offer you gains and losses in equal measure, and many of your life lessons will be tied up in your financial relationship with them. Remember the saying ‘Never mix business with pleasure’? If you can sort out this issue, these Virgos will offer you a solid and stable security which fits in with your personal view of life.

Virgos born between 13 September and 22 September are ideally suited to long-term love and commitment. This is because Jupiter, which has a bearing on your romantic life and is a thoroughly lucky planet for you, also has a bearing on their destiny. You’ll feel physically attracted to them, and will want a bright future with them.

Virgo + Scorpio

Earth + Water = Mud

When you look at the beauty of plants, you see two of life’s essential ingredients: the earth and water. Life and growth depend on these two elements — a seed, plus earth and water, will produce a rich harvest. The same analogy can describe the compatibility of your earth sign and Scorpio’s water sign.

There are many Virgos and Scorpios who’ve had a fulfilling life together. They’ve pooled their financial and mental resources and built a happy and comfortable existence.

At the other end of the spectrum are those who have squabbled incessantly, all the way into old age, and never quite felt fulfilled with each other. This may have something to do with the fact that both of you are very demanding people.

Generally there’s a good connection between your star signs, though — Virgo is the sign of friendship and lifelong fulfilment for Scorpio, and Scorpio is the sign of communication for Virgo. This looks pretty promising from both sides.

There are two very different planets ruling you. Pluto, which rules Scorpio, is dominant, wilful and challenging, in a most confrontational way. You are more prudent, and you prefer to do battle intellectually, in a way that is courteous and modest.

In a long-term relationship you’ll feel that Scorpio is insensitive and lacks respect for, or doesn’t take into account, your emotional needs. And Scorpio will become irritated, if not angry, with your calm and logical analysis of every minor issue. Understanding each other’s motives will help enormously in resolving any differences you have.

If Scorpio could lighten up a little you’d probably feel more confident about a relationship with them.

On a practical level, and in terms of your physical intimacy, you two have all the hallmarks of a really great partnership. This is particularly so for Scorpio in the financial area: you offer them support where investments are concerned. The two of you can work towards financial stability and a mutual support system that will offer you prosperity, security and happiness.

Be wary of Scorpios born between 24 October and 2 November. Mars, which co-rules them, is really quite opposite to your own nature. As a result, there are many things you will not see eye to eye with them on — expect lots of temper flare-ups.

Scorpios born between 3 November and 12 November are ideally suited to long-term love and marriage with you. This is because Jupiter, which influences your marriage, controls them. You’ll feel naturally attracted to them and will have a bright future together.

Scorpios born between 13 November and 22 November offer you gains and losses in equal measure. Many of your life lessons will be learned through your financial relationship with them. There’s an old saying you might need to remember here: never mix business with pleasure.

New Hairstyle

Pocket Bleeding!!!.. This is the first time i spent so much on my hair and was also the first time i tried this new hairstyle.

For 23 years my hair is either short or straight. But from today onwards, there will be a new category. Curly/Perm Hair!!... I hesitated initially if to perm my hair. After some suggestion from friends. I decided to perm my hair.

Initially i wanted to go Far East for the perm however felt that i will be in a confusion of which salon to go to. Hence end up i went for my perm at Jean Yip. This is the first time i went there as i frequent Kimage normally. The service was not bad. However the cost made my heart and wallet bleed.

I chose Digital Spa Perm. At the start i was worried how it will turn out to be and scare it might not be suitable for me.

After 3 hours plus at the salon the result came out. I was quite satisfied with the result however it look more mature (as expected). It was a completely different look of myself. I had never seen myself in perm hair neither does any of my friends.

I believe it will surprise a lot of people when they saw me in this hairstyle. :P

However i would had to try style it myself from monday onwards. I will have to sacrifice my sleeping time as i need more time to prepare myself from now onwards. Hehe!!... Will i be able to style it well? :P

It will be a new hairstyle for my 24th birthday..

S|sters Gathering @ Dempsey

After months we meet again. Qiuye, Jing'e, Yuqin, Huiling, Peishi & me arranged to meet @ clarke quay for dinner and chilli out. As usual i was held up by work and was last to arrive.

The night was fun and interesting as we rarely meet up. The meet up let us discover that there is going to be a mother among us. My dear sister Ye is 3 months pregnant. She will be holding her wedding on October. Time really flys and now she is going to be mother soon. Hope that she had a happy marriage and give birth to a chubby cute baby.

It was really surprising and unexpected that Qiuye, Yuqin & Huiling would be getting marry in the same year. Qiuye will be holding her customary in October, Yuqin will be holding her ROM cum Customary in November and Huiling will be holding her customary in December. Wow!! .. Each months one wedding to attend, BROKE!.. yet happy for my sisters...

We wanted to have our dinner at Waraku Pasta however the queue was too long and pregnant Ye is hungry hence we decided to change venue. We went Clarke Quay TCC for dinner. After the dinner we wanted to find a place for Qiuye to have some extra food as she did not had her full. Pregnant woman tend to eat more. :P

However there was no suitable places. Hence she bought a slice of cake and we took a cab to Dempsey Road for chilling. We went to The Oosh again. Excellent atmosphere to chilli out. We took photo and chat.

We should had chilli till after midnight but from now on we are not able to as pregnant woman cannot stay up too late. They tend to be tired and need enough rest. Hence we left at 12am. Future gathering would also had to be at Coffee House as pregnant woman cannot drink alcoholic drinks.

It was really unexpected and times really fly. Seems like it was only yesterday we are in Secondary school chatting and playing. But now they are all getting ready for their wedding. Seeing them settle down made me feel envy.

When will i meet my Mr. Right?

Dearest Sisters! I wish you all Happiness & Wonderful Marriage Life!!.... No words can describe the kind of happiness i have for my 3 dear Sisters...

L O V E

When two people join together and bond their lives forever because they are certain they have something special that will make their marriage last.

This is the first faith these two people will build a life.
And as long as their determination stays with them this life will always be their hope their dream their truth their being their inspiration and their source of strength.

Through their life together they will hurt and laugh together they will learn and grow through trail and error.

The lessons will show them the meaning of true love and the difference between a love that last and one that gives up.

These two people will face each failure together and discover the strength to go on.
They will encourage each others dream and forgive each others faults.

Through a labor of love these two will become as one fighting against the odds and ultimately creating a marriage that will grow into an infinite love.

Love is a something which consists of CTL U
Communication
Trust
Love
Understanding

It needs two hands to clap..

又是一首歌..

孙燕姿 - 不是真的爱我

你和我就算了吗
别用沉默代替回答
陌生得让我害怕
心像被针扎了一下
总是不提那句话
我想你是故意装傻
不是不懂得表达
还在等什么说清楚吧
我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重
我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由
终于明白那句话
爱能让人一夜长大
不成熟的感情啊
让我变得小心害怕
我和你就算了吧
不想再为爱而挣扎
爱情若没有火花
至少了解后懂得放下

Li Sheng Jie - 你那么爱他

直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个
美好风景　只是他早已离去
直到你想通　他早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他 为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔
直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个
美好风景　只是他早已离去
直到你想通　他早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他 为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔
你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他 为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔

Dempsey Road

Tanglin Village located at dempsey road is a nice place to chilli out. There was a lot bar and restaurant located there. One good recommendation is The Oosh http://oosh.com.sg/.

Yesterday was the first time i went there. Arranged to meet Peishi there with Huiling. However i believe that was the worse and most unlucky chilling day out. After my gym, Ling fetched me from Novena and we went to Dempsey together. However as there was 2 road entrance to Tanglin Village, we was drove in by the back entrance whereas The Oosh was at the front road entrance.

We alighted at Dempsey Hill and could not find the place. Ended up we walk back as instructed by Peishi all the way to the entrance of the road. Dark & Errie path down passing by the forest without any light by the road. It was lucky that we are 2 person if not i could not think of what will happened.

We walk all the way down and still could not find. In the end we walked back the dark and errie path back to the hill side. We enter a street we never enter into yet. In the end we manage to meet up with Peishi at a shop and she brought us to The Oosh. Hai~ What a unlucky day. On the way i almost sprained my leg when i slip into the unseen pitch.

We sat down and had our cold chicken wings which had been waiting for us for 1 hours. We was suppose to reach that place at 10 plus 11 however as i was delayed at my gym we only manage to meet up at 11 plus and only found the place after almost 1 hour of walk.

The place was nice however the sweat used to reach the destinated location was terrible.. -_-

I tried the Martini Royale (Chivas 12 yrs, honey water). Regretted! It was not nice. Peishi try the Frozen Strawberry Mocktail Champagne and Ling tried the Sea Breeze. Both was not bad and nice.

Although the place was hard to find and far but indeed was a nice and good new place to chilli out.

The place closed at 2am. After that we intended to go try our luck at Chomp Chomp for supper but was unlucky to see all shop closed. Ended up we had roti prata.

*The most terrible and worse experience i had before being able to chilli out. An unlucky day*