Saturday, March 22, 2008

** Tired... Struggling..Vex **

Hai~... What is life?

Life is suffering? Life is happiness?

For years i had been struggling to pay debts and pay debts. I am trying ways to look at the bright side, hoping miracle will appear one day. But till now nothing had happened. Only more and more tons of debt to carry on my shoulder.

Sometimes i just wish to run away to a far away land and live alone.

Every month my salary is not even enough to cover the debts. When will i be able to strike a big 4D or toto and clear my debts one and for all..

This month i am in a headache again. Gotta to clear a 1k cheque and contribute to my cousin wedding ang bao. Where can i find so much money?

Sometime i wish my the other part is able to help me clear and contribute to my debts but it was not easy to really ask for money just like this. I wish to share my problem with him but i can't do it. Why? Cause i scare he will feel i am a burden.

Why is my life in such a dilemma?